break, me

please
just let me
go, and
let this in
this small, wonderful
this...
i have no idea
what i am
and if i do
the beauty
in your words
i could do
no more beauty
in this world.
i want to break
i want to breathe
i want to scream
i want to deal...
but here i am,
writing words that
will burn
with thanksgiving embers.
kiss kiss,
bang bang,
i wish
i was soft
so all this was
quiet.
my breath
my chest
my blood
will never be
the same.

k.